Lamar Odom43, spoke about the struggles she faced during her marriage, including his “cheating” Khloe Kardashian, 38, in a newly released video. The clip is a sneak peek of the new documentary special, TMZ Presents: Lamar Odom: Sex, Drugs & the Kardashians, and the former professional basketball player admitted “laughing with embarrassment” after his infidelity. “Behind the scenes, I put him through sex. Like, that you all do not know. All that* you know, all that you think you know, is madness. But the stories you don’t know are kind of craziest actually,” he said in the clip, which can be seen above.

“I would have these random women coming out. Some of them came out at one point in time,” he continued before further admitting that he had “full blown relationships” while married to Khloe. “Your wife is Khloe Kardashian. You’re buggin’,” he said. “I’m, like, laughing in embarrassment right now. Like, how did you think you were going to get away with that one?

Khloe Kardashian, Lamar Odom
Khloe and Lamar have been married for four years. (Sarah Jaye / shutterstock)

Lamar’s admission comes after his and Khloe’s divorce in 2016 following a separation that began in 2013. They were married in 2009 after dating for a month, and after their separation, Khloe continued to support Lamar, especially after he had a fatal overdose in their midst. in 2015 after a struggle with addiction. Since they finalized their divorce, Lamar has spoken publicly more than once about his remaining love for his ex-wife.

“I’d probably like to take her to dinner,” he said in a confessional celebrity big brother earlier this year. “It would be a blessing just to be in her presence to apologize to her and how stupid I was. He has every right to never see me again, because I do whatever I make him do, but times go on and people change. I would say that I am more loyal now.

Lamar Odom, Khloe Kardashian
Lamar and Khloe at a previous event. (Peter Brooker / shutterstock)

Despite Lamar’s remorse and hope for a second chance with Khloe, The Good American boss apparently wants nothing to do with his former love’s documentary about their marriage, which was released on Jan. 2. Nor is his family’s name being dragged into it. HollywoodLife, ‘She has no animosity towards him, but wants him to leave it in the past,’ she added. Khloe doesn’t feel any need to repeat things and would like him to stop bringing it up. He is free to share his story, but he would appreciate leaving his name out of it.

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